Ok, kinda dumb because if anyone's had a break the last couple of years it's me! BUT... I am the one that puts all these pressure's on myself. The pressure of becoming famous, the pressure of taking Theblackapple's #1 spot on etsy as the top seller, the pressure of trying to make everyone hang on my every word... I guess it's harder to be narcissistic than i thought!!
I couldn't even enjoy these anymore, I was too busy looking for "IDEAS".
Don't worry, I won't be taking a break from my blog, just a break from working on my millions! I've noticed lately that I'm just not enjoying my time at home anymore. I've wanted for YEARS AND YEARS to be able to stay home and now I can and so many times I find that i'm down.... WHY??? OCD runs in my family (great!) and I've become so OCD about forcing myself to make "stuff" to sell to make millions that I no longer am enjoying even GOING to my studio! All I ever think is "what can I make next" and "will this sell?" instead of just creating to create and that, my friends, is a recipe for disaster! The more I made that I didn't sell, the more down I was getting on myself! I want to make stuff for ME, I want to make stuff for friends, I want to make stuff for my darling daughter... I even want to make stuff to give away here on my blog!!
So, like Bob,
I'm taking a vacation from my problems!
I feel better already! I'm kinda thinking if I quit trying so hard, I may actually find myself as an artist... whoa, how awesome would that be?! The mister is getting his buddy, Sparks the electrician, over to hook up my kiln soon and then... I'm going to be elbow deep in clay as much as I possibly can! I've already promised myself to make darling and I jewelry, to make stuff for MY home and to do what I want without the obsessive "maybe i can sell this" thought!
Ok, enough about my fake problems!
Picture overload coming right up:
Cute tanks from Old Navy
a Coral one from TJ Maxx (oh, how I love this place...)
do you know that Coral is the color that looks good on everyone?!
a skirt from TARGET (makes me want to say shimmy, shimmy coco pops)
speaking of coco:
I forgot I took these, my experimentation of "Can a 41 year old wear knee socks with a skirt and not look LOL Ridiculous?"
Recently a friend said "have you been on vacation? you're so tan!".... Ewww, that means my make-up is too dark! I kept thinking I looked like an extra on Jersey Shores!
So... I grabbed this... out of the tube white, on my skin, skin color!! how does it do that?
Good bye mineral powder orange tan girl!
I started this yesterday on day 1 of my "vacation":
and darling and I worked on this:
Now I'm all ZEN and going to go get on my treadmill...
OH and if you WANT to vote for my blog interview, look at yesterdays post and follow the link- but that's all I'm going to say about that, cause I'm all in the zen-zone!